Okay, I’m twittering. Or is it tweeting? Am I a tweeter?
A friend told me it would be a good idea to get on Twitter to spread the word about my blog. Did you know what’s going on out there???? There is a whole world of people having conversations every minute of their lives with thousands of strangers!!!
This is amazing, incredible, powerful, INSANE?!?!
I love it, I hate it, I’m overwhelmed by it…wait, just a minute, I need to check my twitter account.
Do people want to know what I’m thinking that often? I can even update it from my phone! On the run tweeting. I can drive, text, tweet, email, and put on make up at the same time! (Just kidding)
I am excited by this and a little frightened. This does not fit into my plan of being still, aware, calm and thoughtful. I’ve been ignoring my family as I set up the twitter account and every time a new tweet comes in. My mind is racing. I can’t rest. This can’t be good.
But I’m sure the novelty will wear off. I’m sure, just like other things in life, the newness will die down and then it will just fit in with my life in a more natural way. I will be tweeting but it won’t consume my day. Isn’t amazing how we can be so gung ho for something and then it becomes ho hum?
This is how love is. Exciting, thrilling, captivating, intense and then if we are lucky, eventually, it becomes steady, real, authentic, lasting. Often people try to recapture that initial, frenetic phase of love. They want to feel the newness; they want to feel enthralled again. But the reality is love gets better with time. Although the excitement often dies down, intimacy grows. True love slows down, listens, gets comfortable, opens up, shares, trusts and endures. The good stuff happens when that initial phase is over.
The same is true for our relationship with God. Many of us are trying to recapture our initial feelings of our relationship with God. I am loved! I am joyful, I have found the way! We want to go to church and be entertained! We want to sing and dance and feel it! When we are not entertained or ON FIRE, we are questioning, does this really matter? Is it true? I don’t feel jazzed up on God anymore. But again, the good stuff happens when that initial phase is over. There are days to be dancing and excited and there are days to be serious and thoughtful. There are prayers that are loud and exuberant and there are prayers that are quiet and intimate.
We settle into a routine of comfort with the people we love and with God. We are known, we are understood. We can rest.