Since I’m a blogger, I really want to write about everything. I experience things and when they are powerful or meaningful in some way, I want to share them. But lately I’ve started wondering if God intends some things to just be for me. If He frowns upon me running to my computer to upload photos of everything to Facebook and Instagram. This came to a head for me when I was singing along with the worship band in church and tears were streaming down my face and I thought, “I should take a picture of the band and share it on Great Big Yes!”
Maybe that’s the challenge. If something happened but it’s not posted, did it really happen?
How are our kids going to know when it’s right to just sit in something…to just receive it…be it love or affection or a compliment or a holy spirit moment…how will they know what is sacred? private? not appropriate to share?
I struggle with that. I’m hoping that my words bring you closer to God. I’m hoping to share His Word with you and the hope and peace and joy that comes from the radical love of Jesus. Nobody needs more Sue. The whole world needs more Jesus. So, I want to be part of that. Bringing some Jesus to you. The Grace and Mercy that He brings. Healing. Freedom.
When we found out we were moving, I called a Holy Yoga sister and I told her. I was crying and talking fast and worrying and anticipating and trying to control. She listened so kindly and then said something that changed me forever. She said, “You know this is not a surprise to God, right?”
He goes before me.
Omniscient. Omnipotent. Omnipresent.
Now I think of all things through that lens. Nothing is a surprise to God.
When my daughter came home and said she is joining a Bible Study, it was a surprise to me but not to Him.
When my husband met people at work for the first time and they told him they have “been praying for him and his family” this was a surprise to my husband because people just don’t say stuff like that in Chicago…but God…He knew. He heard those prayers and He planned for those words to fall on my husband’s surprised but grateful heart.
When I was standing in that church weeping with the worship music, arms raised and heart open…He was not surprised.
With every box unpacked, each rental place (there have been 2), buying a home, selling a home, meeting new people, new schools, figuring it all out…through every single moment, He is not surprised. He is present and aware. He goes before me and makes a path for me. He protects me and provides for me.
He can be trusted.
But He can’t be surprised.
I find immense comfort in this. I hope you do too.
“The Lord himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged.” – Deuteronomy 31:8