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A Mother’s Prayer

 

She woke up today with a heavy heart.

Anxiety pierced her chest.

Slushing through the breakfast routine she wondered why.

Fell asleep reading a book about minors being stolen and trafficked.

Could wreak havoc on even the most hopeful mind.

Studying, learning, praying, demanding some sort of safe haven for these sweet souls bought and sold. Bought and sold. Mercy Lord. Your daughters and sons. Like property.

Her stomach hurts and she considers going back to bed. 

Nagging uncomfortable feeling persists and she remembers more.

Good people she knows looking for son. He’s lost. Find him Lord.

Other mothers that are dear mourn their lost children.

Friends struggle through teaching right and wrong. Boundaries. You are worthy. You are loved.

This too shall pass.

It will be better in the morning.

Except when it’s not.

I was told motherhood is the great equalizer and that is true. You pray for me I’ll pray for you.

It’s all we can do really.

Money, connections, family, friends, education, they don’t guarantee anything.

It’s a rocky road we travel. It’s an unsteady balance beam and we can’t strut here.

We walk tentatively. We focus our gaze.On you Lord.

Light.

Like Peter we lose focus, we look away. We fall. This reminds us to look at you again. We regain balance.

Only you know Lord. And you love us. You love our kids more than we do. Although I can’t imagine.

We read books and we share what we know and we love and we hold and we pray.

We tuck in and we snuggle and we laugh and we do homework and make sandwiches and drive and text and call and do laundry.

We cheer from the stands and we cry in cars alone. We buy things and fix things and anxiously await results.

We teach and we hug and we provide and we pray some more.

Lord, protect my baby.

Stay right there beside him even when he’s six feet tall.

Don’t ever leave her.

Remind him who he is when he forgets.

Love her when I’m not there Lord.

Have his back.

Guard her heart.

I’m sorry for complaining when I was tired or angry or hungry or lonely.

Lord, this gift. This gift.

Thank you. 

 

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A New Thing

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Right?

I think this is one of the most beautiful realizations we come to when we are saved by God’s grace.

I don’t know about you but when God started showing me me, I realized I don’t have any time to worry about competing with other people.  I’ve got some serious work to do in my own heart and my own life.

I praise and thank God for His revelation.  I am grateful for “eyes to see”.

And I pray to be a better me tomorrow. A kinder, less prideful,  less defensive, more courageous, more trusting me.

Here’s to tomorrow!

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Day 30: The End is the Beginning

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It’s day 30 of 30 days of thanks. This is my final post of this series.  I will be going back to posting once a week.  To your inbox I say…you’re welcome.

I have appreciated you being along for the ride and I have loved reading your 30 days of thanks too!

Although at times I have found posting something every day to be quite a challenge, I gained some insights this month.

Sometimes I think we “pretend” our faith.  Sometimes I think we pray like we think we should or we “thank” like we think we should, using fancy words and proper English.  Very hoity-toity ish.  We think long and hard about our blessings and we write profound things and it feels like we are turning in a school paper.  I do that sometimes here on the blog.  I will read over something I wrote and I’ll think, “Who is that weird, fancy, formal person?” So this month, I tried to just be real and write about fun things or silly things that actually happen in my life.  I don’t think God wants us to be fancy, He just wants us to be real.

Some things we have in our lives are profound and important and holy and sacred.  Actually, as I wrote about the silly and the every day things that bring me joy, I realized it’s all sacred.

Gratitude itself is sacred – it keeps us in everyday conversation and friendship with God.  And that friendship is what I give thanks for every day, no matter what month it is!

I will magnify him with thanksgiving. -Psalm 69:30

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